December 12, 2009
“ Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.
Lemony Snicket
December 10, 2009

broken hearts and other things;

Ok so today on the outside went pretty well, despite the rumors about certian people I have heard about. But I believe them to be false now that someone has taken the strength to clear the air. And I thank her for that.

I hurt you and I can’t handle that. You are one of my closest friends and quite frankly, I love you. I’m sorry and I am going to make it up to you one way or another.

I’m pretty sure I broke my toe considering it was bleeding non-stop and it is swollen and extremely purple. I can’t really walk which will make tomorrow extremely fun, especially since people like to step on my feet (on accident of course.)

Well other than some of these things, I’m not really sure what to think.

Except that I totally owned the french quiz today and yesterday of course(:

December 9, 2009
“ You know what’s the most terrifying thing about admitting that you’re in love? You’re just naked. You put yourself in harm’s way and you lay down all your defenses. No clothes, no weapons. Nowhere to hide, completely vulnerable. The only thing that makes it tolerable is to believe the other person loves you back and you can trust him not to hurt you.
December 6, 2009
December 5, 2009
yes, lets.

yes, lets.

December 3, 2009
December 2, 2009
November 30, 2009

I’ve got to make a decision.

Yes or no.

But my mind and heart say two different things.

I want something else, but I can’t bring myself to realize that completely.

I need you more that I thought.

I hope that will be for the best in the long run.

Help me make the decision.